Monday, June 19, 2006

BbBbbbrRrrrr... It's cooooooldddd....

Woohoo!! It's been freezing these few days. Freezing as in freezing... Partly my fault. WHY?? 'coz I'm the only person in the house that is insane enough to be walking round with clothes more suitable in summer... No, I don't mean clothes like tank tops. I mean short sleeve t-shirts and shorts for bed. Hahahahahah... I just hate wearing tons of clothes. So long the temperature is acceptable, I'll just continue wearing t-shirts and shorts. (and perhaps thrown on long pants when my legs lose the ability to move)

Last two exams are spread into errr, almost a week apart. DUH! Waste my holidays. I really could go on ranting about losing my holidays which are the most precious things to me. HUH! And I've not bought a Maori-English bilingual dictionary. Don't think I'll use it anyway, even though the lecturer had stressed the importance of having one. I ABSOLUTELY hate exams. They suck. Even though I thought I did pretty ok. I hope I get really fantastic, fabulous marks for them.

Oh yea. I had my first ever fortune cookie. I usually wonder what kind of "famous" quotes are put in it or WEIRD ones like "The guy sitting next to you will spit on you" but which I'm sure aren't many. Mine was given by Vincent. He went yumchar this afternoon after his last exam. Lucky guy and I've got another week. I used to pity Mel 'coz she had hers like on a Saturday but that definitely beats mine which is DURING the holidays. Aawww shucks. Ok. The fortune cookie read "For those who are flying home using Air New Zealand to Shanghai would have a very comfortable journey." @_@" What in the HECK does that predict a fortune? It's a FACT for goodness sake.

I used to wonder how much a hairstyle could like erm... INFLUENCE a girl's look. Ok. I look like... BAD. It was a terrible hair for me. I think I'm never going back to the hairdresser anymore. It was really terrible. I do not want to go back to that hairstyle. I think I've got some pictures from last year. I'll post them up when I've got time to upload each and everyone of them. Then I went back and changed my hair. Debated whether to keep it straight or perm it. Hahhhaa... Kept it straight. Hated it. Got a fringe. Hated it too til it grew long. Hahahha... Perm it. Hated it too. Love and hate relationship with it now.

Next step? Change my clothes. Oh my goodness. I look like a kiddo compared to the girls in my class and even high school students. MOST of them are younger than me. NO WAY!

Anyway... Going to fulfill one of my dreams. Pierce my ears. I didn't get them pierced for ages. Why? Chickened out, mum forbiddened it and even family relationships are on the teters if I did pierce my ears. I've waited long enough. I think I'll get them done this year end. Hope they don't rot or I'll hear the never-ending nagging of my mum. HAhahahahha...

Oh... Have you greeted your dad "Happy Father's Day" yet? I almost forgot 'coz for once, New Zealand decided to be different and have their father's day in September. Why? Lets ask the government, or whoever decides when the days should be.

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Tagged... I HATE U CASPER!

Instruction: Name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head. Don't read the questions before you write, and tag 5 people to do the survey.
  1. Eleanor
  2. Ke Li
  3. Andy
  4. Siew Hui
  5. Candy
  6. Vui Kiat
  7. Edmund
  8. Kimberly
  9. See Hua
  10. Vincent
  11. Melissa
  12. Joshua
  13. Lian Hui
  14. Alex
  15. Diwin
  16. JinHong
  17. Koey
  18. Aidwina
  19. Chi Lai
  20. Liang Shiu
Oi... I don't have 5 people to tag cz... most of my friends don't blog and bla bla bla. Anyway... People I can tag is Edmund & Aidwina!!! Go guy and girl... I wonder how long would it take you to look at this.

Note: This list is by no means an order of "importance", "relevance" or "closeness.

1. How did you meet #14?
(Alex)
Erm... Cz he's the guy I met here so in church lah. Do you expect that I meet guys in school (I go to girls' school) and uni (like there is guys for me to me there....)

2. What would you do if you had never met #1? (Eleanor)
I think I practically die... She's my life support in Kuching. HAhahahah... The best girl.

3. What would you do if #20 and #9 dated? (#20 Liang Shiu, #9 See Hua )
Eh See Hua, when you become gay ar?? I think I just puke cz... LS and SH really kenot lah. Like watching Brokeback Mountain. OMG....

4. Would #6 and #17 make a good couple? (#6 Vui Kiat, #17 Koey)
I don't think so. Anyway she has a bf liao... I've no idea because one is my friend over here and the guy is back in Kuching. Attitude wise? The girl's crazy. I don't think VK can tahan another girl who is even more crazy than me.

5. Describe #3.(Andy)
My brother. Ok. He's my kan ge lah. As if I kenot haf a brother ha?? He's nice, idiot, a moron... Sometimes I bug him cz he is really cool. Has a gf and has a car which is the best part cz I usually bully him in bringing me out when I go back.... HAhahhahahhaa... Thanks lah lao ge. You r the best!

6. Do you think #8 is attractive? (Kimberly)
Cute in her own way. Yes. Everyone is attrative.

7. Tell me something about #7. (Edmund)
PILOT!!! WEKEKEKE... A big catch girls!! Free tickets to fly anyway. Or is it 10% of the cost?

8. Do you know anything about #12's family? (Joshua)
Another church youth. Yea. We know the family.

9. What is #8's favourite? (Kimberly)
Dunno lah. My junior. Mana saya tau. But I'm guessing it's either at home or at Japan Oh I know... She wants to recieve letters!!!

10. What would you do if #11 confesses that he/she likes you? (Melissa)
Normal lah. Cousins lah. If dun like how to live together and bully the guy?

11. What language does #15 speak? (Diwin)
Cantonese, CHinese, English. I think that's all.

12. Who is #9 going out with? (See Hua)
U AGAIN SEE HUA. TELL THE READERS YRSELF.

13. How old is #16 now? (JinHOng)
She's 18 this year. Birthday on the 13th of February.

14. When was the last time you talked to #13? (Lian Hui)
Last Sunday or Saturday. Pick one.

15. Who's #2's favourite singer? (Ke Li)
This girls "siao" 5566. The Tony Sun guy. One of my relatives cz he has the same Chinese surname as me.

16. Would you date #4? (Siew Hui)
Definitely if I'm a guy. She's soooo gorgeous. And she's my darling...

17. Would you date #7? (Edmund)
Can consider. Who says dating is for only those in relationships?

18. Is #15 single? (Diwin)
Dunno ar... Youth dun talk much on relationships with humans. Wahahaha... I really dunno lah. I just kenot go up and ask "Eh, u dating ha?"

19. What's #10's last name? (Vincent)
Duh, CHONG lah...

20. Would you ever consider being in a relationship with #19? (Chi Lai)
Err... My friend for ages... I dun think so. It is going to be weird if i'm in a relationship with him.

21. What school did #3 go to? (Andy)
Primary 4 - 6 My primary school lah. Now in his last year in form 6 which means he is in SMK Stampin for ages... er... like... Form 1 til now?

22. Where does #6 live? (Vui Kiat)
Hui Sing, Kuching

23. What's your favourite thing about #5? (Candy)
She's the best. Can always laugh and be sarcastic with me.

24. What do you think of #13? (Lian Hui)
Some one who loves God very very much.

25. What do #4 and #19 have in common? (#4 Siew Hui #19 Chi Lai)
WAHAHAHAHHAA... Height??? Joking. Edmund would know this cz SH is like 175cm tall and Chi Lai is 165? HAhahahahaha... FUNNY!!!

26. What special qualities does #17 hold in your life? (Koey)
A trooper. Studies hard and tries her best in everything. Not afraid to try.

p.s. EDMUND LIM!!! of iseek4edmund.blogspot.com U R TAGGED! reminder.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Exams. Or supposed to be.

It's exams week now!!! Freaky eh?? I was like... NOT PREPARING. HAhahaha... My most hated subject (because it's weird and weird), Diversity was the first paper. Actually it was yesterday, OR SUPPOSED TO BE.

Auckland was warned of strong winds yesterday which was like 100km/hr (I think so...) so it was pretty scary. Winter is so stupid. I wanted SNOW but all I get is a WET and WINDY winter which makes my umbrella go cuckoo as it was flipping everytime I open it. DUMB... I've ruined 2 umbrellas in 5 times. Bad...

OK... What does the weather has to do with exams?? Lots, I tell you, A LOT!!!

My Diversity exam cancelled.

Went to Uni early, freaking out cz I wasn't memorising all the stuff. HAhahahahahahahaha... Then at 8.30am, the lights went off in the library. I was studying by the windows so we were pretty cool about it. We were still chatting about the policies and stuff with Paolo and Jin. Then went off to check my darn class. Then found out it was a blackout. NOthing much. Until I heard outside my lecture/exam room that exams may be cancelled because of the power cut. Why? Whole of Auckland is in darkness......

I was supposed to have my FIRST exams of my FIRST year of my bachelor degree. We were the FIRST session of the day which was Monday which technically the FIRST day of my schooling week. The paper was my FIRST paper of all the 4 i've gotta take a test on and.... We were the FIRST group to have exams and also FIRST group to take this new paper which was just introduced to us this year. So yea.... I was freaking out and stuff cz I thought I would not do well and what happened?? Auckland had a warning on strong ferocious winds which goes up to 100km and.... BLACKOUT!!!!!!!!!! Hahahahahahah... All of Auckland is like... no electricity cz of the winds which blew over a cable which was part of the main substation. HAhahahahahahaha... So... EXAMS CANCELLED!!!!!!!!!!!!

BAd news: I may have to take it in the holidays UNLESS my campus says that "Oh we've got room at an earlier date!"

=( the cute guy is not having his exams in my room. Anyway, I can see him.... TALKING to girls.


I forgot what to say... I know I've got something to say........... o_O"

Friday, June 2, 2006

Life so far...

Tv, tv, tv.

Exams, exams, exams.

Food, food, food.

Hahaha... I was thinking about life as an uni student for the past semester. Kinda rewarding. I thought it was like high school except for the extra guys, older students and... LESS CLASS!!!

I used to tell my dad that I want to go to a guy's school, like Auckland Grammar School. As you noticed, my high school was Auckland GIRLS' Grammar School. Too bad it spilt from day one and girls could not study with guys. Maybe that's why I don't have a boyfriend... Hmm... One factor to consider. AGS is sooo cool. Everything is way much cooler than AGGS. Why? GUYS... GUYS!! Cute ones... WOO HOO!!! Oh man... I'm siao guys these days. Must be the depravation of er... GUYS at uni.

It's the Pentacost today. Combined service with the english congregation. It's kinda cool to go to an english service after soo long. It was a good service but I thought the worship could do with a bit longer. They are a bit time constraining. Everytime you really get into the song, the guy ends it. WHAT THE HECK!!!! I WANT MORE!!! That's why I miss FBC and Bethany. They don't kill off you.

*the guy playing bass guitar is CUTE. So lesson learnt, guys go learn bass guitar. YOu would look cool and cute. Joey (another youth) says he doesn't need it cz he's cute (EWWW) and lots of girls are after him (Hmm...)

Youth was pretty cool last night. I snucked off two pieces of cake. BAD girl. Hahah... I wanted the yam one but Alex (he's sooo nice) gave me the choc one. I was like... "I want the other one" but i still took the cake. He has the guts to give it to me. And i hate Victor. He keeps bullying me. DO I LOOOK LIKE I CHIEN BULLY KAH?? My face say "BULLY ME BULLY ME?" meh? Apalah... but I know they don't mean any harm. Just be cool... Heheheh...

Joey says he wants to organise a chinese karaoke session. It's soo gonna be cool... HAhaha... Me singing? I'm gonna make everyone deaf. Wekekekke...

Sunday, May 21, 2006

All is well

Wahahhaha...

All is well. YOu guys do not need to suffer from me writing weird stuff again. Hah!

Actually I've forgiven her. Long ago. I forget stuff fast. And I hate keeping grudges. Maybe that's why my memory's so bad. I keep forgetting stuff....HMmm...

Duh. I think I went on being mad cz some comments made. Anyway I don't care and I don't mind. I just get work up all the time. Must change the attitude.

Waste my time getting angry the whole week.

HAhahahhahahha...

Sarawak's election result is out. DAP won most the seats.

Calling home to ask my parents what they think about the result anyway.

I remembered asking my parents who they vote all the time... ALL THE TIME but they would never tell me. They always say "It's private!! You should not ask."

Do your parents tell you who they vote?

I'm sure mine told my cats anyway.

* Oh yea... I found a really cool website where you can like have a blog and everything online. I think it's free. My Korean friend introduced it to me but sadly, only in Chinese.

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Sometimes it's good to SHUT the HECK up and pretend it did not happen

I'm no angel and I do not plan to be one.

I'm a Christian but I don't think I fit into God's perspective of a perfect person.
In fact, I fall far from it.

I swear a lot but during times I really really need an outlet for my anger.

I'm stubborn but it's me.

I don't care if anyone is not perfect or I've done it before but when it hurts, I'm selfish.

I love my darling friends who have been considerate, giving me good CHRISTIAN advice.

Eleanor is the best,
She's there when I need her.
Aidwina is the sweetest,
She supports whenever I'm depressed.
Jia Miin is my sister,
I love her for she will not leave me.
My brother is Andy,
He doesn't know what happened but I know he will give fantastic advice.

I may not be mature enough. You may think I'm childish BUT it's me. Those people love me for what I am. They know how much I've been going through. They also know how much I've grown. I'm not perfect, yes, but I need to feel anger. I need an outlet. I have things I don't like to be said to me. I do that to people but I know and they know.

Monday, May 15, 2006

What should I do?

I don't know.
I don't know.
I don't know.

Should I or should I not?

I told one of the girls what happened on Saturday night and she went and tell the person in context. Is it a bad choice or what? I could just ignored the girl but now that she knows, what should I do? I don't really like her but she's part of the youth, I do try and get along with everyone. Now she must think that I'm
intentionally made up that story because I don't like her and is jealous of her? And she's my cousin's best buddy in youth and they usually leave me with the others. No idea. She hurt me lots by saying those fateful words but... now? Is she going to go further? She's sort of part relative and she LOVES being part of the family. I know her family doesn't really like me much because of stuff. I can't see through her. Just fighting within a Christian group is much harder than friends. I'm worried. I'm desperate. And I still don't like her. Not that fast but soon. God, please help. I really don't know what I can do.

What can I do? Pretend everything did not happen or what???

Please advice me guys. I really do need it.

Saturday, May 13, 2006

What the??

I miss my cat...

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It would never say I'm ugly as some people did tonight... Am I ugly?

=(

It's stupid to do that to someone. It's not funny. It kills our self-esteem. NOw I'm really really depressed.

Guys, a simple joke about looks on girls is never funny. It hurts. Deeply.

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Congratulations to me that it's the first time in Auckland that someone called me ugly...

Friday, May 12, 2006

Bloody freezing...

It's been really crazy weather this week. It's AUTUMN for goodness sake, and I HATE RAIN!

I've been procastinating the time to wake up. I usually get up around 6.50am but these few days were ssooooooo cold that I stayed in bed for another extra 15 minutes which is bad because I've still gotta share the bathroom with my cousin. AND we have to be downstairs by 7.10 or max 7.15 or if not we would get scolded and also be late for uni cz I'm catching the bus.

I had really bad luck with buses recently. I was like 5 seconds behind the bus and it left!!! ARGH!!! NOT ONCE, TWICE!!! SO dead.... I had to wait for 13 minutes (why can't they put 10 minutes to make me happy?) for the next bus and IT'S USUALLY LATE... Depends on the driver lolz... And I ALMOST didn't get the bus on thurs afternoon. It shot past me but I did raise my hand along with my laptop and bag... HEAVY!! Luckily the driver was kind enough to stop. If not I would be late again. DUH!

I found out that I could make white smoke, the thing we see people doing in movies where it's really cold... HAhahaha... At the bus stop to be exact. Very embarassing lo... If u go past a bus stop at Symonds Street and see a crazy girl blowing out white smoke, I think it will be 99% that it's me. The 1% is to make u guys happy.

It's so tiring now... I keep having the feeling of falling asleep in class when it's going on and on and on....................................................which most of the lecturers tend to do. BORING... But i'm still ok. My Korean friend, Jin keeps nodding off. She's like nod front, nod backwards, nod sideways and then slam, she loses the pen in her hands and she wakes up. WAHAHAHAHA.... I found out that the Koreans have a really cool website where it's a bit like Friendster but WAY COOLER!!! It's like a forum, a blog, a photo gallery and u can decorate it with cyber people BUT u gotta pay them... I think it's real cool... I want one! But I can't read it... It's in Korean.

It's freezing today. It rains and stops. And rains again and stops again. All within 15 minutes each cycle. Stupid weather aye? Why can't it be cold but dry? And the wind is horrendous here. It's freezing and you have this really really BIG HUMONGOUS WIND blowing straight at you and IF you are really lucky, which is like everytime, you get the rain too. ARGH! My jeans are all wet. EEEWWWW and smelly.

Monday, May 8, 2006

Did I do my best?

I'm wondering that amongst all my assignments, did I try my best to do them or was it all last minute work??

I've really no idea... Going through a period of depression.............

>.<