Thursday, August 25, 2011


It's still really nice to have some extra cash on hand and be able to do some online shopping, especially when you live in a hole. Kinda like a hole.............. NZ is so far from everywhere else that everything you buy here is a rip off.

I got some stuffs cause I had extra Gcash I could use. Very happily accumulated over the 3 years I have shopped at Gmarket. I've still got another package waiting to arrive. That one, I paid.

This time round I am quite disappointed with the shipping but nonetheless faster anyway.

Bought two skirts for the cousin and they were really cheap. Round 6900 won and 8900 won? Cheaper than the ripped off price we get in NZ. A decent lacy skirt would costs 40 bucks. Now i can get it at 1/4 of it's price?

Well... My small haul are earrings, earrings, earrings....

I keep losing mine. :( but a good excuse to get more!

The package when arrived. I knew what I was ordering and when I picked it up at the post office (My house is really inaccessible to couriers. *HORRORS*), the lady came out with this slim envelope. I was puzzled. I knew I had a small package but THAT SMALL?
LOL.Turned out it was a package that had a really similar tracking number to mine!

Super big box with virtually 2 items in it. Super light too!

My earrings. I was puzzled at first but when I looked closely, it was really nice touch with the handwritten things.

Who doesn't like freebies?

I ♥ her awesome note. Nuf said. This seller is a keeper!

this is the earring seller!

Thursday, June 2, 2011

at the moment... i'm blogging at tumblr. zzz...

caved into Helen's persistence about tumblers, tumbler and tumblr. LOL

:D Let's see how long i last.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011



you think you write romance novel is it?

Saturday, May 14, 2011

SO tired always being the person behind everything, working to make it work. Anything.

and yet no one still would think on my behalf or know what I really want and need.

All they do is...

expect more and be all nonchalant when I'm not in my usual noisy self.

Mental exhaustion.

Any thanks?

Thursday, May 12, 2011


It's great to find reasons to smile again.

Yesterday was a bearer of really smile-worthy news.

An old friend suddenly texted me telling me that he is back in NZ. What a surprise! Gotta meet him up soon.

Hoodies for youth are in NZ! YEAH!

Seeing Jin tomorrow. :)

My cousins from my dad's side decided to keep in touch and invite me over for dinner.. Ooohh... I'm looking forward.

Students were so cute yesterday... One of their good happy days.

Finally met Jessie and parents up and had a really good dinner...

I really hope I can find things every day to smile about...

Just been a bit down recently on things ever since camp...

What do you want me to do?

Saturday, April 16, 2011

I guess a lot of people didn't realise this.

I'm pretty sad about my birthday this year.


My friends didn't really care...

I am turning 24 on the 24th of March which is technically, on the 4th day of the 4th week. Sigh.

I wanted a rabbit. JUST A RABBIT cz it's my YEAR!!!!!!!!!


and I'm posting almost a month later because I can't get over it.

Monday, February 14, 2011

irony of things

it's so weird how friendship fades.
I read somewhere about real friendship.
Something about no matter how long you've not seen each other or occassionally contact each other, you still are able to pick up where you left it.

Somehow, back to Kuching and KL this time, I felt that void. I felt shy. I didn't know how to act. It was weird.

This friend used to be so close. Man, our MSN conversations were havoc. They were mostly "crap" talk but then.... suddenly. I don't get conversations. Ah well, people are busy too. I just left it. Then comes Facebook. A friend who would comment on most things, just stopped. Ah well, maybe things aren't what they are supposed to be. I just felt it was a pity as it was still quite a good friendship.

Then comes the point where my friend just "select" things to tell me. Things she thinks I want to hear from her. I just want honesty. If you want to spend more time with your boyfriend, just say so. I might be single AND NEEDY but doesn't mean I won't be happy for you. Ah well, communication broken down. I just wish her happiness. I don't want to go into such a friendship where it actually felt like a chore for her.

Just thoughts voicing out. I know, I know. I need to hear the side of the story. I'm not that ridiculous. I just wanted to vent out that particular frustration!


But dinner at White in Hilton was amazingly delicious. Comparing the prices and services towards Sails and White. Man, I will go back to White any time.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

little blessings

The darlings who couldn't leave the church.... and asked me to rescue them
Fell in love with HK.
First shot of me by dad. I look horrendous. Yup. Just got back from the trip!

"Esther 姨姨"
Little things that adds on that splash of colour onto a black and white life.

Saturday, February 12, 2011

how can I keep from singing...

When I left Malaysia. I felt so depressed. I felt that everything is wrong.
Came back to NZ and molding myself that I would be the safest, laziest, most comfortable way.
There is no meaning to life. I don't even know why I'm doing this course. I love children but I find no meaning in learning any more. I find that through practical work, through a lot of reflection I managed to learn more things than just reading through theories.
So when bad news hit me, I find that what state am I in? Few years back I could say I'm staying strong but recently it's been so static. I don't want to read the Word, I don't want to improve my relationship with Him. I feel such a hypocrite sometimes.


How could I keep from singing. Reminded myself. That I should sing God's love not during hard times, when I'm walking through the valley of death (still feels like it) but even when I'm happy, smiling and everything goes well...

Let's see how my walk will dramatically change. I want it to change. I will make a change.

psst! JinHong. This is really for you~~ I feel so bad for everything but still, you knew how I feel, how depressed I am but still on the day you should have the best, I told you that I couldn't make it because my own selfish reasons and you still supported me.

Sunday, February 6, 2011


nah, that doesn't feel any better.

the trip home made me feel a bit even more..... homesick??
I guess I like living away from home but not so far? How many more years do I have to stick it out in NZ??? I really want to go home. My comfort. My sanctuary.

I miss my parents a lot.

I miss I miss I miss... AirAsia. AHAHHAHA. For the sake of cheap tickets. But I also miss being able to eat.

i'm hungry as.... but I don't wanna go down and find food. It's not home