Fasting month... Selamat Hari Raya soon lolz...

Time flies... I think it has the speed of light. It's really fast and now I'm facing exams and soon
I'll be back home... Home sweet home. Living away from home is nice but I really do wanna go home. It seems a day when I said my goodbyes and came over here. It's nice, the weather, the people and even the food but it just can't take over the smell of dust in the air, the glazing sun, the humid touch on my skin and the dirty kopitiams back home. It just didn't ooze the same feeling of sweetness and friendliness of home...

Exams coming up and I do not have the heart of preparing for it. I just wanna escape and that's really bad. I do so wanna do well and please pray that I really can concentrate on all my studies. It was hell for me during the senior exams week. I didn't do well and I can say that I didn't do my best. I am really hoping that I could do my best in all my exams.

Home is home. How can you define a home? Something where you feel you belong to or somewhere that you love? I miss my mum and dad. I do say living apart from them really brought us close together. Living here opened my eyes that there are lots of different sides to
things. I quarrelled less with my mum and talked more to her... saying stuff like "Erm... You
know when my piano only got pass, not merit? In fact it has nothing to do with the teacher but I was lazy to practise it..." If I had said it in front of her in Kuching, now... I think she would get really mad and perhaps... ground me?? Hahaha...

Fasting month is here. Bad luck for the Muslims here... It's daylight saving, meaning that the hours of the day are longer and the nights are shorter. It is daylight aroud 5am and the day really grows dark around 8.00pm. I really wonder how do they fast here?? It's bad enough having to fast from 5am to 5pm and it really sucks to fast another 3 more hours... Hahah.. I was told that they cheat by fasting according to their country's time and I do not blame them... SO I just wanna wish Siti Hajar and Siti Rohani a very good fasting month... I wonder where they are.... I miss them!!

The smothered junior... Nice uniform aye? The scarf is also part of it... 

Talking to my friends... Hmmm... Very artistic wo... Like the world is gonna tilt... 

Yesterday...

Oh yea... In response to my post yesterday... Can I kill you Edmund?? Wekekek... NAh... Guys have the thickest skin ever so I do not bother to apologise anyway. It was just at the spur of the moment stuff... I'm trying to put up photos of the food I like here... Heheh... Just wait...

Freakin' Holiday...

Just finished my exams, had a trip up north and NOW I'm tired like heck... Life sucks and I wanna go back home. Here might be fun but life is still better when I'm home. I miss my parents soooo much.

Yea, talking about friends. I've so many but how many are really close to me? I've just reviewed myself and I found out that I've still got lots to change... I really need to apologise as I may seem over at times...

Ke Li, I was rude and horrible but really gal... That's me... Sorrt for doing stuff u hate to u... Glad that we are good friends now.

Candy, you were one of my oldest friend. I used to think that u r a bimbo but it turns out otherwise. Glad that u stuck up for me when I was at my lowest.

Lee Kian (Juan) I suck at our friendship. We didn't talked to each other for half a year and our relationship was strained for a year due to my stupidity. Just over something that's not worth it. I admit, I was jealous of you...

Siew Hui, (Siew Siew) U are such a sweet gal. I bitched behind your back and yet we remain good friends. If possible, I'll see ya this CNY... Sorry if I ever hurt your feelings.

Eleanor, (Lenor) u were the most perfect gal... Looks, deposition, loving, fun, sociable... U name it, you've got it. I was jealous about you. Yet u treated me the best... I felt guilty... Sorry gal... U were just the sweetest and I could not hate u any longer... Wekeke...

I've lots to apologise to and I could only remember these few cz I really love them... Wahahah... Sorry la... No guys cz I know u guys ta ren ta liang...

Went to study at Auckland Uni library. NO use 1... Cz my eyes always looking at guys and gals la... Who ask them sibeh eng tao and leng... C til distracted.

Hahaha... Idiot la...

Exams... DUMB EXAMS!!!!!!

Freaking finished my exams now... Found out I really sux at all. It was HORRENDEOUS!!!!!!! This is really a nightmare... What sanity does the exam board has? NONE!!! Try writing 8 freaking essays (2 pages long...) in 3 hours, not mentioning you still have gotta do at least 3 maps and erm... 20 questions of subjective questions that need drawing and eye-squinting?? THIS IS TOTALLY OUT OF HAND!!!! Oh yea... That's the easy exam. DUMB! 3 papers in 3 hours... MAnaged to kick one of it... Meaning I failed cz I've no idea wad I wrote and freaking no time to do anything...

English was the worst out of all. I came out pale-faced. I had 2 papers on that day. Physics and English combination of exams are so my luck. *%#$!!! WAAAAA... I wanna cry... 3 at least 500 words long of essays... Ever thought about Bahluddin (The BM tuition teacher that is famous in Kuching... )? Weellll..... The essays are sort of that long but u can never ever crapped bout any stuff!!!! And they expect us to analyse and try different styles of writing... ALL ARE CRAP!!!!!!! Plus I had to do a big analysis on unfamiliar text... Meaning I've gotta learn all those metaphors and explain them in a page long essay... Tough luck!!

Songs are what cheer me up now... Oh yea... I love Good Charlotte and W-inds. Soothing... Screaming my head off... Ta!

WAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!

OH NO!!!!!!! DUMB DUMB DUMB DUMB DAY!!!!!!!!!! I hate days like this... Everything goes wrong. I debated on bringing my friends book to school and I decided against it. HOWEVER she needed it... So better bring tomorrow. Then Physics Internal! GOING NUTS! I didn't managed to finish it... Boo hoo hoo... Conclusion not done, evaluation not finished... Didn't manage to get the gradient of the line counted... WAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!

Ok... I had a great week last week. Went to town with my friends... COOL!! My Life Story at my school playing songs to which the gals are screaming at... BLEARGH!!!!!!! Then Auckland Uni Open day... FOund out that I could have my interview b4 going back and I do not need to come back to Auckland so early... CNY HERE I COME!!! WEKEKEKE!!!

Next week would be the Seniors Exam Week... OH NO!! Not yet started revising yet... DO NOT KILL ME!! I've like... Geo to study, English to hafal all the quotes, History to remember wad happened next, Phyics to remind myself that electricity is easy for me (so i do not give up halfway) and also Stats to remind me of all the hell i went through when I was in Form 5...

HECK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Die la... SO depressed...

Life's sucks...

Ok... I am being really naughty. I told a guy to be my boyfriend. It's just a plain damn typical brainless Esther sytle of joke. I wanted to be able to show my boyfriend's picture around like my Kiwi friends do. It's kinda sweet. So I thought, why not ask someone that can grace my wallet too?

The guy would know who he is himself. I'm not going to embarass him in my blog. Nah, he's just a sweet and nice guy who just happened to be in my way. So I asked him just on impulse. Well, it's just a no-strings attached relationship. I just need picture anyway and I do admit, he looks good. Hahah... There are some really good stuffs lolz... I do not care how many girlfriends he has in Kuching, how many girls he likes, so long I can have his picture in my wallet. So, anyone who wants to apply? Just leave a message.
*I sound like a brainless bimbo... Nah... Not that desperate.

Now I'm trying to finish up my assignment for Geography. I really admit my essay writing skills are great, fantastic and admirable... Ok... it's my cut-and-paste-then-rewrite-some-of-it-lah skill.... Ok... GEROFF this blog and start write your last two essays. Mind you that I still have a PHysics le-pot to write and also one diagram to draw...

LaZy bUm...

I've been procastinating my geo assignment which is due on the 22nd... I've 6 weeks to work on it but I've not started yet... DAMN!!!

Classes are really tiring cz:

1. I'm sleeping in my History class
2. The teacher's not teaching anything cz he's too busy admonishing my classmates to shut up.
3. It's all about things I've miss during my rehearsal time.
4. I've gotta speak for 6 minutes in front of the damn class, in ENGLISH and about texts (Shakespeare - Othello, Katherine Mansfield and James K. Baxter) which I hate so much!!
5. O yea... reading too much and too late in bed.

I've been helping out my friends in their Economic assignments, o yea... What the heck is an economic assignment in my hands? I do not even do economic for goodness sake... Hahah... I'm paraphrasing and doing some translating for them.

Essays to write and lots of reading logs due... Better do them tomorrow!! HaiZz...

A rose for each of the orchestra member in appreciation. I picked the orange rose... 

Post production... 

Thanking the teachers who had worked so hard for the production. 

"Maria"... She's really good. 

The "dad" and his 7 "children" 

Rest at last...

I've been stuck at school everyday after school for two weeks straight just for our school's production. I'm glad to say that it was a success. Everyone loved it.

In case you are wondering, what a person like me could do in the school production, which incidentally is a musical, "The Sound Of Music!" I can't sing, can't act and can't even say my lines properly without freaking out with so many people watching me. HAhaha... Weeelll, evey musical needs it's music and I'm in the orchestra. NAh, fat chance playing the piano so I played the violin. It was fantastic. I learned so much through this production alone. Hehe... The few weeks of late nights (trying desperately to juggle my studies and the production) were worth it. I missed classes and lots of sleep but at last the response from the audience was worth all of the hard work. Almost every night was a sold out.

Studies was a hard one to juggle along with all that rehearsals. I had a hard time catching up with my classes too. At least I managed to finish all my homework and do them well. Now busy preparing for my exams in Week 7. That's one heck of a big exam... Praying hard and erm... Better start doing my geo thing. 2 more weeks to go.

Hectic... NOT ENOUGH SLEEP!!!

Oh NO!! I'm spending at least 12 hours in school everyday of this week... What for?? My school production-lah!! Sound of Music. Nah, I'm not acting but I'm in the orchestra for violin... I know my violin playing sounds like killing chickens but aye... They need me... Wekekke...

At least I'm allowed to blog at school. I cannot check my hotmail emails and also go onto Friendster... All blocked by my school...

I've only started the new timetable for 2 days and boy, I'm tired!!!

I do wonder how can I stand studying til 2am and wake up at 6.45am everyday when in Malaysia... Here I go to bed at 11pm and wake up at 7.30am and I still feel really tired...

bLurRr...

An Emotional Day

I planned to have my violin looked at today. It has a big crack running it. I had put off having it looked at since last term holidays which was like more than 2 months ago. Today I decided that by hook and by crook I would have it looked at. The main problem is that I've no idea where the shop was and I do not know how to get there by bus. Wahaha... I only know how to walk and walking to Dominion Rd is NOT easy. It's one of the longest roads here. So I decided to go with a friend who is an expert on buses.

Went to midcity to take a bus. Ok... Bus number 258. MUST REMEMBER!!! If not I really don't know how to pick up my violin lolz... Went to Dominion Rd. I asked the bus driver does the bus go past Balmoral or not. He says yes. I was like... Err... Ok... The bus driver must have sensed my uncertainty. He say that he would call out when we reached Balmoral. I was like "Thannkk youuu!!" He was sooo nice and patient.

We reached Balmoral... We looked around. Hmm... Where to find that shop??!! I've never been out of Auckland City with my friends... Blurrr... So look up and down, left and right. Don't know where we are. Ok... Start walking down the road, occasionally spotting a number. The first time we spotted one was 625!! WOW! The shop I'm looking for is at 863... 200 more shops and houses to go... It's going to be a really long walk. Walk walk walk... At least got 10 minutes, then suddenly spotted 862!! Yea! Reaching there soon. Walk next door, eh why the number is 864?? Where is 863?? Walk further... Ai?? 124?? Apa ni?? Hahah... Had to walk back to the shops and ask them. The Indian lady was so nice. When she knew I was looking for the violin shop, she directed me. Ok... That should be sufficient enough but heck, I still was blurr... I was supposed to looked for some HB sign and a shop that has lots of guitars. Ok... Walk down the road, went past 880, then 886... I felt like screaming "WHERE THE HECK IS THAT SHOP??" Then my friend noticed that the side of our road are all even numbers and the opposite are all odd numbers. I also spotted the the sign "Guitars" pointing to the opposite side of the road. Then I saw the shop. It was quaint and sweet. I knew violin shop would be upstairs as the add was said "Upper Room 863 Balmoral Dominion Rd." Went up and I saw this shop full of violins and also guitars. Saw an old guy talking to some customers and a young lady was looking expectantly at me. I told her about my case and the lady had another guy in the workshop to take a look at it.

The old guy was apparently listening to what I was saying and he said, "Don't cry..." I was like... I'm not crying ler... Then the lady told me that it would take around a week and $200 to repair my violin. I was not sure whether to have it repaired here or to bring it back to Malaysia for repair as it is so much cheaper. So I decided to call home. My dad picked up the phone and I was like "Daddy, ask mummy whether to have the violin repaired here, it will cost around $200." My mum say ok. Have it repaired here. So my dad was asking, you have money right?? I say yup, then I hung up quickly because I was using my friend's handphone.

After calling my parents, I wanted to leave but he old man told me that he wanted to have a talk with me. OH NO!!! He asked me to tell him what happened to the violin and I told him. Halfway through it I started crying... (I've no idea why) He was so sweet, he handed me a hankie and told me that it's not my fault and he is there to fix it. He is a Christian and a very nice one. So much like a grandpa to me. Ok. My grandparents were never very affectionate so this is a whole new experience. He said that once I stepped into the shop he knew there was something wrong and he can help me fix it. He also said that God has led me to this shop so he will try his best to fix up my violin. Thank God.

I really thank the Lord for leading me to that shop. My teacher had originally recommended that shop but I never really went and find it because it was really far. I had prefered somewhere nearer home but at last I still chose to go there. God's plan?

At least my China friends would be interested in Christianity. It would be hard, leading them to the Lord but cross my fingers, it would be a sucessful one. Heheh...

*Who the heck is sien liau bueh! I don't bite and don't kill. I know who I am. Who are you?

Worked my nerves up when I wanted to call the shop. Heheh... Some of you would know. I pestered Ling Tung til he lost his head with me and ordered me to call the damn shop. Then I couldn't dial the last number so I called my friend and she was like... Ceh... Such a small thing. Call me when it is something big lolz... BUT I've a phobia calling someone and it's BIG!

My school's basketball cum netball cum tennis field... 

Music block... 

Newest addition to the school... I'll be using that next term... It's our Maths block 

Our courtyard... Nice lolz... That's G Block, social science (History, Geo) and Science block... 

Library coms... There are more in the computer labs... We have 15 coms in the library and i think 70 plus more all over the school... All the classrooms would have at least one... 

My library... Big aye?? It's really nice... 

Swimming pool and diving pool... 

Front lawn 

My school... NICE!!! 

My KOOL frenz... Look whose face is cut off again... HAha... Physics lab. 

My cheese cake... YUMMYLICIOUS!!! 

Wahahaha... HOLIDAYS!!!!!

I'm feeling pretty good right now... It's the holidays and I can do whatever I want to do, which are:

1. Sleeping
2. Make a cheese cake (noticed it doesn't say BAKE)
3. Watch all the tv I want
4. Go online as often I can...
5. Go out with friends, in other words, LEPAK at Queen Street
6. Read all I can... Book nutter... Especially with Harry Potter coming out soon... Precisely at 11.01am in Auckland, NZ...

Well... I did all that and I also planned to study as hard as I can and also write tons and tons of essays. Plus study for all my subjects... There's a really biggie exam coming up in Week 7 of Term 3. I'm hoping that I'll do really well.

I made a cheese cake yesterday... In fact it was at 10pm at night... I didn't want to make a baked cheese cake as I prefer the chilled one more. So I DID IT!!! I did subsitute some of the ingredients but I used most of it recommended in the cooking book. I was planning to do it alone but I sure need my cousin's help. Without her help I think my cake would have flunk deep down into the valley of wherever.

Well that's the starting of my hols and I'm making a great start. My plans are that to relax the first week and study the next. Hehe... Wish me luck that I would stick to it.

WHEN ARE MY HOLS!!?!?!!

Haha... I've never been blogging much and I do think what I write really stinks.
Bleargh... Bored man... Bored to death.

I think the teachers here have a penchant for having exmas at the end of the term or semester. My first semester ended with me having to have exams everyday of the week and coming out looking really blur and sleepy. Now I'm coming to the of term 2 and voila! all the teachers decided to have exams on wednesday (2 very stressing ones - Physics and Geography) and Statistics on Thursday... CAN THEY STOP HAVING EXAMS AT THE END OF THE TERM!!??

The Da Vinci Code (movie) is coming out next year... I think the date is 19 of MAy 2006... Hmm... I wonder which would be the first to ban it?? Malaysian Government or the Vatican??? Hahaha... I'm sure that the movie would not be shown in Malaysia unless our censor department suddenly turn a blind eye against the religion issue. The Church and the Pope would be the first to condemn it... Hmm... All over a movie and it's influence. I do say that the book was quite convincing on it's own. That's really bad. It's just a piece of fiction and IT'S ONLY FICTION FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!! However not all readers think so... HMMMM... Well it will be directed by Ron HOward (he directed I think BAtman Begins and also A Beautiful Mind which incidentally is my film study where the teacher made us watch the movie at least 3 times over and over again... SO DEPRESSING!!!) Tom Hanks and Ian McKellan will be starring. One movie to look out next year despite the controversy...

It's the coldest month of the year and I still wear shorts and t-shirts all around the house with no heating on... I like the feeling of cold anyway... Most of my friends are sick with the flu or cough... Thank God that with His blessing I'm still going healthy.

Ok... I've decided to change my skin again... I HATE CHANGES but this is really getting on my nerves as no one is reading my blog...

>.<

Just reloaded my hp... Hope I wouldn't kill it off in a week...

I brought this picture over to NZ for dunno wad reason.. I think it was taken when I was Primary 3 or 4... Dancing lessons... So much younger than all the big sisters... Guess where am I... 

Stole the cat from my nieghbour for a quick photo... Cute lerr... HOwever I think my cats are much nicer... Check out my March archives for my cats... 

Something fun, short and sweet that u guys can try it out!!

Found this really funny and short quiz on my cousin's friend's blog (Walao... Going into the nenek and apek story liao...)... I thought it was kinda fun and I tried it out. It was fanstastic... I'll post a link so all of you guys who read my blog can try it too, which I think Ek Guan and Edmund and occasionnally a friend of mine who doesn't know how to operate this thing... HAhaha...

Okie... DA LINK!!

Congratulations estherscning, you are...

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You are outgoing, direct, smart, pretty, and a definite go-getter. You are frank, a little too frank perhaps that sometimes you get on people's nerves and make them very upset. If people attack you, you hit back with triple the force without blinking because you are the kind of person who knows exactly what you are talking about or else you wouldn't talk about it. Your quick-thinking is what makes you special. You are an elitist.

Which Malaysian Blogger Are You?

*Try it out!! Kinda funny especially the last question... Wahahah...

p.s. Sorry-lah... Long time no blog but haven't lost my m'sian english yet loh...

My research stuffs for my project... Got an non-achieved for it... Boo hoo hoo... =( 

Zorbing down the hill and getting wet at the same time... SYOK!! 

Chairlifts and the luge... FUN!! OUTRAGEOUS!! 

My roomates at the hostel... Nvm our room... Very messy but still better than most of the others... Dun b shocked!