Hahaha... I'm sleeping on the top of the bunk bed... Very messy and childish... Hehehe... 

My first birthday present!!!... by post some more... Hehehe... (This was supposed to be uploaded after the cake but dunno y it failed though... hehehe...) 

This is the table I use to study... Very messy... Worse than this because I clear it up before taking this picture... *paisei* 

Hahah... This was really a surprised... Hmm.. Makeup?? I don't think I'll use it though... Hahaha... Touched though... 

Another one from my gang in New Zealand... 

My first present from my frenz here... She drew it by herself... 

YING!!! I recieved this on my birthday! That makes it sooooo special 

This is the card that arrived with another card... I was sooooo happy... hehehe... 

I'm wondering if all of those who shared the present know what Andy wrote in the card?? *evil laugh* 

Got this with another birthday card... Thanks guys!! I didn't expect it from you... 

Yummy!! My birthday cake... Made out of rum ooo... Just only legal to drink & I have a cake that has alcohol!!! 

~ Friendship ~

I've learned...
That life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes.

I've learned...
That we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for.

I've learned...
That money doesn't buy class.

I've learned...
That it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.

I've learned...
That under everyone's hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.

I've learned...
That the Lord didn't do it all in one day. What makes me think I can?

I've learned...
That to ignore the facts does not change the facts.

I've learned...
That when you plan to get even with someone, you are only letting that person continue to hurt you.

I've learned...
That love, not time, heals all wounds.

I've learned...
That the easiest way for me to grow as a person is to surround myself with people smarter than I am.

I've learned...
That everyone you meet deserves to be greeted with a smile.

I've learned...
That there's nothing sweeter than sleeping with your babies and feeling their breath on your cheeks.

I've learned...
That no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.

I've learned...
That life is tough, but I'm tougher.

I've learned...
That opportunities are never lost; someone will take the ones you miss.

I've learned...
That when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock elsewhere.

I've learned...
That I wish I could have told those I cared about that I love them one more time before they passed away.

I've learned...
That one should keep his words both soft and tender, because tomorrow he may have to eat them.

I've learned...
That a smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.

I've learned...
That I can't choose how I feel, but I can choose what I do about it.

I've learned...
That everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you're climbing it.

I've learned...
That it is best to give advice in only two circumstances; when it is requested and when it is a life threatening situation.

I've learned...
That the less time I have to work with, the more things I get done.

yo!!Yo!!! YO!!!! iT's mE bIrtHdAy!!

Ok... I'm a bit extreme here... I'm just posting this up to thank all of my friends... You guys were all so fantastic... Sent me all those birthday cards and also presents?? Omigosh... Surprised. Hey Lao ge... I ask you for a present and you really sent me one?? So... Could I have a handphone please, Fairy Godmother?? Ooopss, change the sex lol... ok... Fairy Godfather... Thanks also who were sharing with my bro... but do you know that he puts himself as "shuai ge" and you guys as "chicken" or "pig"?? Hahaha... My friends here also did make it a really happy occasion... Got presents and cards from them... Will post the photos of it when I get hold of the camera... Hehehe... Rae... You were soooooo sweet in sending such a "unique" card... Sorry I didn't do one for you. Hehehe... Eleanor and Cyn... You were really thoughtful... I really liked the present. YING!!! I got your card on my birthday! That's one of my best presents ever... erm... did I miss out anyone?? I shouldn't do that you know?? To those who sent me sms... THANK YOU THANK YOU!!! You know who you are... Thanks guys for making such a memorable birthday for me in New Zealand... I'm really touched and I thank God for such friends... May God bless you all abundantly...
*sniffing* because I'm so touched...

I HATE SPM!!!!!!!!

I know it's over and what's done is done but WHY do I have to get such STUPID IDIOTIC results?? I really dread calling home now in case my mother starts going on how good others are... I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!! Why God?? This is a stupid question... I'm feeling down down down... Going to hit the rocks real soon... I'm disappointed!! REAL disappointment... Here... NO friends to talk to, life has it's up and downs. It's always not what I want or what we want... Oh my, I'm confusing myself even more. Can I get into university here?? Will I do well? Or I'm just destined to be a loser... People who are stupider than me can do better than me... What did I do so badly on?? I HATE SPM??!!!!! It's making my life harder and harder... If only I got better results... Oh no... There is goes again... Haizzz... I should stop feeling so bad... IT’S BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH NO!!!!!!!! I've got to focus more on God... He has His own plans but I'm not getting the hang of it here...

Life's... Weird...

Today was not so bad after all... A singer called Chingy came to my school for a short concert. Girls just went crazy after him. Don't bother to ask who he is because I have no idea at all. I only know that he is quite well-known here and is thin. I couldn't get in because I still have no student ID at all. The teachers will check the ID so that only AGGS girls can get in. Seems like wearing the uniform was no use to identify because I heard from Wan Ting (my Taiwan friend) that a guy wore my school's uniform and he got away with it. For those who have no idea about my school at all, it's a girls' school... That's why a guy wearing girl's uniform is weird.

Well, I was waiting outside the school's cafe but they wouldn't let us in... Apparently they are afraid that we will access the hall from the cafe. I had to wait outside for 10 minutes... During that time, I could hear girls screaming every 5 seconds. How scary... That's not all. Before lunch time, I was in the library. The bell went 5 minutes earlier so that the students will have enough to enjoy themselves. All I know was that the girls started screaming and running towards the DWC (Dorothy Winston Centre, my school auditorium or hall really...) I'm going deaf by the screaming... Honestly, it can be deafening...

By the sound when I was inside the cafe warming up my lunch, all I heard was the heavy bass and the screaming of the girls. Who the heck is that guy that can make at least 700 girls scream every 5 seconds?? Don't they get deaf and sore throats afterward?? Haha... Out of my gang, only 3 of us are left eating by ourselves. Had quite a nice lunch because I'm the closest with those two girls... Shared our food around.

At last lunch time was over... Went to Geography class. On the way there I could hear girls still discussing about the concert. Seems that they had fun. My teacher was not in class so I just sat down and read. After 5 minutes, she came in, set up the LCD to her digital camera... She had took some photos and videos during the concert. She played it for us... All I could see was girls dancing to the beat and screaming. My teacher was like "Oww... It was too dark to see it..." My teacher is so sporting and fun. She wanted to do something seroius today for Geography but decided not to as the girls in my class were still very excited about the concert. Great teacher! Sorry to lose her as she will be leaving soon to move to Wellington.

Well, that was my day in school... Good luck for my friends in the National Service... Thanks Kun Chung for reminding me... Hope you meet lots of girls and also guys there... Hahaha... God bless all of you...

~Mixed feelings~

This would be one of my worst days. As you should know... SPM results are out. I didn't do quite well as I expected... Terrible in fact... Why? Why? Why? Asking this why would not solve any. Got my results... IT'S HORRIBLE!! TERRIBLE!!! AN ABOMINATION!!!!!!! I've no idea why?? God's plans are really a mystery to me. Perhaps because I'm stuck here, He thought that I do not need good results.

This is the really bad end to my wonderful week. I had really tiring week... Got another detention again... I have NO IDEA why?? I think detentions have an affliation to me. I'm a perfect attendance student and detention usually comes in a form I never imagine. The first was through my Form teacher but... it was sorted out quickly. Then the second one, it didn't came through my teacher. I was waiting outside the class with my English students so that the junior form scurries out of our class... Then the Dean of International Students, Ms Sturme told me that I got a detention from her. I must have looked stupid because she then explained to me I didn't attend 2 of my classes. I looked blankly at her. She then asked me if my form teacher gave me my detention letter. Apparantly, no... Anyway sorted that quickly when I got it from my form teacher (whom I personally think shoulod retire, she looks 70+, HONEST!!)

Then got a really FANTASTIC NEWs... I had an internal assessment on Geography... Apparently less than 10 passed in my whole school (ok, around 80+ students take that subjcect) I thought to myself, "My oh my... I'm really dead now... How can I compete with those who took Geography since 5th Form? (I'm in 7th Form)" The day the teacher handed our test paper back... I was so nervous. The results are counted into my end of the year result. Me, a Malaysian that has never done Geography (well 4 the last 2 years) and here Geography is not about what plants grows anywhere, it's all about tourims. What caused it n bla bla bla...I was so blur when i did it. I practically wrote lots of crap for the teacher. Then on Wednesday, she showed those who passed the exams our marks. She was walking towards my table and the stupid person in front of me (Indian, I personally don't like them.They are not as fun as Malaysian Indians, not being bious) called her, asking things about the results. After like 10 hours... Ok... It's only less than5 minutes... Then she turned around and faced me. I thought she will be showing the marks to the person next to me, incidently a caucasian. She's so much better at Geography than me. Then my teacher called my name... Imagine how surprised I was!!!! She showed me my mark. I GOT A MERIT!!! I thought if I had passed, the most is an achieved mark, but I got higher than that... MERIT!!! Waahahhahahahaha... I'm going crazy. Almost couldn't believe my eyes... MERIT!! a big "M"!!! It's hard being an International student. I need at least merits n excellences to get into University... Well this is a good start here...

Bad news on Thursday. I was so nervous in school, couldn't concentrate. Got home and started calling and texting people... That's why my handphone ran out of credit AGAIN!!!!!! Anyway whn I got the news I was so shocked that I didn't know how to react... Should I be happy that I'm New Zealand and it's no use crying over spilled milk? Or should I break down? At last I did some of both... Weird huh?? Hence my title: Mixed feelings... It's really a big mixture... Congratulations to all my friends who did well in the SPM... Andy, don't worry... I'll "chia" you when I get back so long your girlfriend is ok with that... Do give me a list of results so there's a treat for all of those who did well and whom I know... Those who did badly, never mind. The future is in your hands, not in the hands of the result... Do well whatever you are doing or planning to do. You'll suceed if you have the right attitude and positive thinking! Siew Ching, Julianna and your gang... I heard from Miss Chee that you guys really did well... Straight A1s and straight As... It was cool knowing all of you!! Fun!! Ok... That's all for now... Ciao!! Do drop some comments...

..::worries::..

I really miss home now... Even though I've been here for almost two months but... I can't really spill things out with frineds... Worries, heartaches (nothing to do with love!!) and tons n tons of things out of my head. I don't feel like going out at all. I just want my privacy and also my family and friends... Now the biggest worry is what would my SPM results look like?? Will it b good or just unmentionable. Church is also not up to my list now. I don't feel on fire for God anymore. Seems like the fire is diminishing slowly. Worship is just like any other thing... It's so unpassionate here. Youth is so lonely. They have cliques and that is ONE thing I absolutely HATE because I had felt that back home. School's ok but homework and physics is a worry, I don't really understand. My friends are great but they have no classes with me as they have to take extra English classes... Assignments due soon and I don't know would I do it well or not... Guys, pray for me... I really need that now. Ok... Ciao!

~Don't let me a burden to your worries as well, unburdened them to God~