All is well

Wahahhaha...

All is well. YOu guys do not need to suffer from me writing weird stuff again. Hah!

Actually I've forgiven her. Long ago. I forget stuff fast. And I hate keeping grudges. Maybe that's why my memory's so bad. I keep forgetting stuff....HMmm...

Duh. I think I went on being mad cz some comments made. Anyway I don't care and I don't mind. I just get work up all the time. Must change the attitude.

Waste my time getting angry the whole week.

HAhahahhahahha...

Sarawak's election result is out. DAP won most the seats.

Calling home to ask my parents what they think about the result anyway.

I remembered asking my parents who they vote all the time... ALL THE TIME but they would never tell me. They always say "It's private!! You should not ask."

Do your parents tell you who they vote?

I'm sure mine told my cats anyway.

* Oh yea... I found a really cool website where you can like have a blog and everything online. I think it's free. My Korean friend introduced it to me but sadly, only in Chinese.

Sometimes it's good to SHUT the HECK up and pretend it did not happen

I'm no angel and I do not plan to be one.

I'm a Christian but I don't think I fit into God's perspective of a perfect person.
In fact, I fall far from it.

I swear a lot but during times I really really need an outlet for my anger.

I'm stubborn but it's me.

I don't care if anyone is not perfect or I've done it before but when it hurts, I'm selfish.

I love my darling friends who have been considerate, giving me good CHRISTIAN advice.

Eleanor is the best,
She's there when I need her.
Aidwina is the sweetest,
She supports whenever I'm depressed.
Jia Miin is my sister,
I love her for she will not leave me.
My brother is Andy,
He doesn't know what happened but I know he will give fantastic advice.

I may not be mature enough. You may think I'm childish BUT it's me. Those people love me for what I am. They know how much I've been going through. They also know how much I've grown. I'm not perfect, yes, but I need to feel anger. I need an outlet. I have things I don't like to be said to me. I do that to people but I know and they know.

What should I do?

I don't know.
I don't know.
I don't know.

Should I or should I not?

I told one of the girls what happened on Saturday night and she went and tell the person in context. Is it a bad choice or what? I could just ignored the girl but now that she knows, what should I do? I don't really like her but she's part of the youth, I do try and get along with everyone. Now she must think that I'm intentionally made up that story because I don't like her and is jealous of her? And she's my cousin's best buddy in youth and they usually leave me with the others. No idea. She hurt me lots by saying those fateful words but... now? Is she going to go further? She's sort of part relative and she LOVES being part of the family. I know her family doesn't really like me much because of stuff. I can't see through her. Just fighting within a Christian group is much harder than friends. I'm worried. I'm desperate. And I still don't like her. Not that fast but soon. God, please help. I really don't know what I can do.

What can I do? Pretend everything did not happen or what???

Please advice me guys. I really do need it.

What the??

I miss my cat...



It would never say I'm ugly as some people did tonight... Am I ugly?

=(

It's stupid to do that to someone. It's not funny. It kills our self-esteem. NOw I'm really really depressed.

Guys, a simple joke about looks on girls is never funny. It hurts. Deeply.



Congratulations to me that it's the first time in Auckland that someone called me ugly...

Bloody freezing...

It's been really crazy weather this week. It's AUTUMN for goodness sake, and I HATE RAIN!

I've been procastinating the time to wake up. I usually get up around 6.50am but these few days were ssooooooo cold that I stayed in bed for another extra 15 minutes which is bad because I've still gotta share the bathroom with my cousin. AND we have to be downstairs by 7.10 or max 7.15 or if not we would get scolded and also be late for uni cz I'm catching the bus.

I had really bad luck with buses recently. I was like 5 seconds behind the bus and it left!!! ARGH!!! NOT ONCE, TWICE!!! SO dead.... I had to wait for 13 minutes (why can't they put 10 minutes to make me happy?) for the next bus and IT'S USUALLY LATE... Depends on the driver lolz... And I ALMOST didn't get the bus on thurs afternoon. It shot past me but I did raise my hand along with my laptop and bag... HEAVY!! Luckily the driver was kind enough to stop. If not I would be late again. DUH!

I found out that I could make white smoke, the thing we see people doing in movies where it's really cold... HAhahaha... At the bus stop to be exact. Very embarassing lo... If u go past a bus stop at Symonds Street and see a crazy girl blowing out white smoke, I think it will be 99% that it's me. The 1% is to make u guys happy.

It's so tiring now... I keep having the feeling of falling asleep in class when it's going on and on and on....................................................which most of the lecturers tend to do. BORING... But i'm still ok. My Korean friend, Jin keeps nodding off. She's like nod front, nod backwards, nod sideways and then slam, she loses the pen in her hands and she wakes up. WAHAHAHAHA.... I found out that the Koreans have a really cool website where it's a bit like Friendster but WAY COOLER!!! It's like a forum, a blog, a photo gallery and u can decorate it with cyber people BUT u gotta pay them... I think it's real cool... I want one! But I can't read it... It's in Korean.

It's freezing today. It rains and stops. And rains again and stops again. All within 15 minutes each cycle. Stupid weather aye? Why can't it be cold but dry? And the wind is horrendous here. It's freezing and you have this really really BIG HUMONGOUS WIND blowing straight at you and IF you are really lucky, which is like everytime, you get the rain too. ARGH! My jeans are all wet. EEEWWWW and smelly.

Did I do my best?

I'm wondering that amongst all my assignments, did I try my best to do them or was it all last minute work??

I've really no idea... Going through a period of depression.............

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