I learnt patience.

I learnt the word: Wait

I learnt that jealousy still can't solve anything.

No matter how angry I am at things. Still, God has His plans.

Now I just need to let go.

RAGE

maybe i was being a bit too happy saying to mum that "The school still calls me first over Jin."

FUDGE.

I WANT THE MONEY.

I want to work.

WHY IS SHE TAKING ALL MY RELIEVING JOBS when I WAS THE ONE WHO INTRODUCED IT.

I really regret sometimes my decisions at times. I knew she needed a job. She turned it down twice. Then slowly because she was desperate, then willing to take it.

but now. I really really am mad.

Online shopping madness...

Recently, due to... VISA slowness...

All I've been doing is going online. It also seems that God didn't want me to have any trouble so I didn't have much relieving work and the occasional New World.

So...

All I did was to try and kill boredom at home.

So went online and HECK... My usual sites were calling me.

Sasa was horrible. I remembered I need lots of masks, LOTS! And then, realised my skincare was diminishing. So added a few more items. After looking here and there and minus-ing stuff so my shopping cart do not get so ridiculous, I managed to buy some.

Other one, gmarket is the worst!! My Korean madness!! OH GOSH! Shoes, clothes, accessories... All so tempting. Click of the button. I managed to dent another part of my account. =.=

However, shipping is really fast for gmarket! Usually get my stuff within a week or two. AMAZING. Sasa just sent me an email saying it would take more than 3-4 weeks. Die lah... Why can't they be as efficient as gmarket? Pfft.

I went out for 3 hours and came back with an email saying that my shoes were posted! I should have gotten more... Argh!

Today is the day I comtemplated whether I'm suitable to carry on as a leader with the youth. And to stay back as well.

I love them. But somehow, this year, I've met more obstacles than ever. And it hurts.

Jin talked about a Korean custom which they do it every new year. They featured some Bible verses and you picking up a random packet? I think so? And she talks about her Bible verse saying that she will face a lot of hard obstacles and she will need a lot of faith to walk down the path.

I think it's been like that for me. Thank God, my spiritual life has grown so much more these few years as well as me wanting to do more for Him.

Thank God for also friends that are constantly there to guide me and comfort me.

I've pretty much mellowed out. I don't know. These few weeks have been trying on me. I'm still stressed out but not in a bad way, meaning, I still sleep pretty well and hopefully, less taking out on people but more on berating myself.

I don't know... I don't know most of my friends anymore.

I want to have a person someone beside me that really can comfort me.

Jin has been a tad further these days because of her boyfriend and somehow, we have nothing in common anymore. =(

I really miss those days.................

Sometimes, thinking of having a bf makes me even depressed cz on most of the blogs I read, everyone is talking about their baby, BB, bubu... wadeva pet name they have for their bfs... and. I really wish I could share things with someone that special...

Argh. Just wistful thinkings and God's timing... is perfect. I believe that.

Complaints, Life and... Tolerance.

Guess living in NZ does have it's perks. I love the weather. Anything else? I love it getting colder and colder and then I freeze.

LOL.

Been complaining and lot but still taking in all the good times I had so far. Kinda.

At least, I have the Gold Coast trip to look forward in May and hopefully, home at the end of the year along with HK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life still sucks.

But my birthday came and went.

Was a small thing this year and with close friends. =)

LOVE the thoughtful presents I had!!!

A new subway. Inside joke about how my last wallet looked like a hamburger.

lots of friends and cakes........

seriously I was so scared I would gain 50kgs at the amount my friends were feeding me.

AND...

TADA!!!!!!!!!!!

I swore I will never get an ipod.

and I BROKE that pact.

MY FRIENDS GOT ME ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

an ipod touch 8G. Which I promptly filled up with applications.

My NDS is gonna cry while i pamper this toy for a while... =)