I'm too loud...

I always like Jessie's place. It's WAAAYYYY COOOL!

I liked it cz it has PEOPLE who I can QUARREL/TEASE with in it.

LOL. E.g. The BANANA. The guy who can't speak "CHUN" chinese... (Whereas mine is not that great but I STILL can speak decent chinese...) HAhaha... Jessie was just commenting when I was at her place after marketing to rest before leaving for Epsom again. Banana was in. She says that it's good that I don't stay with him or the whole apartment would crash. The banana name-calling started again. I think I should STOP teasing people and name-calling them. It's cool though. It's like being back home again.

And STOP calling people egg tart cz their name sounds like egg tart.

And suddenly I became egg-nana. THANKS to the banana. He wanted me to taste my own medicine. This came up when we went to Long Bay beach for fun. I sat in the middle of egg tart and banana. BAD IDEA.

That's how egg-nana began. LOL. Everyone in that gang that went to the beach calls me egg-nana now. EEEWWWWWWWWWW...

Hope they dun find out my nick back home. LOL. Lucky Jessie does not remember my bloody chinese name. HAhaahha... If not... Can imagine my future... BLEAK.

Uni starts.... TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!

I dun wan uni to start tomorrow...

First time I enjoyed my hols.
First time I had friends to tease with most of the day.
First time I walked to Foodtown all week and bought nothing.

I like having friends with me. It used to be in high school then Jin... But now I've got Jessie and her gang... WHICH are also just as cool... At least they stay near uni or wadeva...

LOL.

I don't want the hols to end......................................

AND I'm starting to feel a teeny weeny bit rebellious.

My orientation........ in my second year!

It was my orientation day... Thanks to Jessie.

And it came one year late. LOL. A second year student sneaking into orientation and listening to things that I was supposed to listen too last year... Never mind, a refreshing experience.

OMG.
I'm aching all over...
NZ keeps harping about their cricket win over Australia... TWICE. HOWEVER, it's cool to win them though...
I find out that I'm rusty at walking... I used to be able to walk, walk, walk... Too much driving in Kuching I think...
And... How's CNY??

Social tips?

I think I'm in denial of being back in Auckland.

I DO NOT WANT TO BE BACK. I HATE IT HERE. No, it's just that I HATE the feeling of being so far from home.

I live a day at a time. I do not know what the future holds. I'm worried. My aunt has told me to find a job, especially in primary schools, I've gotta work hard. Find a school, volunteer as much time as I can.

I DO NOT WANT TO DO SO. Why? It's easy.

I'm very shy. LOL. You would say I lied. I'm a bloody liar.

I can't get past that shyness. Worst thing? I need to overcome it.

My mum said I'm aloof, high-and-mighty and proud. I would not talk to people. It's just that I've no idea what to talk to them about? I can't get past the initial 4 questions you ask people.

1. What is your name?
2. What are you doing now?
3. Where are you studying?

Ok. I'm wrong. 3 questions. Eleanor suggested I asked how their studies are going and stuffs... BUT... usually I end up with this really strain silence in which both parties do not want to break.

So guys? Give me some tips I can to break the ice? It's bad... And I can only talk to people younger than me...................... AND I NEED TO TALK TO PEOPLE OLDER THAN ME TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No wonder my cousin's better with people in church... She's sociable and is able to talk small talk. No, correct that. BOTH cousins. On the other hand, I'm the quiet one standing there, ignored by people. Well... I'm the only child. I've limited communication. And with friends, it's just crap and they still understand what you are talking about.

A BIG SIGH!!!!!!!!!!!

It's more than a month since I blogged.

One word... LAZINESS.

And yeah... I'm back in Auckland.

One feeling... LONELINESS.

I WANNA GO HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!