i really need to rant out.
a really dear friend. REALLY dear... She's very close but... she irritates me at things as sometimes we don't see eye to eye but yet she still forces me to go along. I do. So long it doesn't cross the line..
Recent years seen a huge influxes of relationships and marriages yet... I have yet to have one. People tell me to be less picky. I'll say, I haven't met the one that clicked yet.
Or I've been to anti-social as mum says.
She's been trying to fix me up with guys and sometimes I wonder, if the guys were to be that good, why aren't you hooking up with him? I'm perfectly content (WELL MOST OF THE TIMES) being single and having my own time. Plus, I'm pretty busy myself.
She called me up in good terms to ask me if I would go badminton with her on monday night. I agreed to it first but then I remembered, I've got choir practise that runs til at least 9.45pm. This was a pact for me to serve God more and outside church this year. I had a feeling I will be busy but then when we make time for God, time seems more meaningful unlike last year where I rejected joining the choir because "Life was unsettled." I told myself, no matter what, I will join it this year and I never regretted it. I met new people, learnt how to socialise amongst other churches and also grow spiritually.
She's a Christian friend and I do expect at least for her to understand my obligations to put God first. She told me to try and get out of choir. I told her no as we have a presentation in 5 weeks time. We need all the time to practise. She insists that I call in sick, or just not turn up at all. I said no to that. She said why can you call in sick for New World but not choir? It's the same. I told her my reasons but yet she still insists that choir isn't that great after all. She backed off after I started sounding a bit angry.
One thing that stuck in my mind was her saying, why are you so busy all the time? When are you going to meet guys?
I guess being 23 and working hard isn't going hand in hand or just our values don't match up. I love her dearly but, sometimes, my priorities are still my priorities. Meeting guys just to widen my social circle I don't mind but sometimes the way she introduces me to guys just makes me go on offense.
On her birthday she tried asking another Christian friend who just so be there whether they have a lot of guys in their church. And the next thing she did was to point at me and say, "She's desperate," and states my degree as an education major. The girl just asked me if I majored in Early Childhood or Primary and I said Primary. So she got a little excited and said I could meet this guy who was doing the same course. I, in turned asked her if she had come from this church and I ACTUALLY GUESSED CORRECTLY. The guy spoken was my junior in uni and I actually helped him and coached him a little on his interview into getting the course.
Well, by then the whole table was getting so overexcited that it just blew way out of proportion, making it such a big deal even with me insisting that it was my sister's church mate and I already knew him way back. Somehow, they just decided there and then that I SHOULD PROBABLY consider him. Far out. Just give me a break.
She just practically embarasses me in front of every guy I met or seen with her. Except for church mates. Even if a guy was just plain nice and what's wrong with just friends, she would managed to twist it some other way that makes me go, NEVER TALKING TO THAT GUY AGAIN.
Really, is it just me or just everyone else thinks that by 23 you don't have a bf or relationship, you're screwed. Why can't you just accept that I will be happy and probably regret later but then, I'm not rushing myself into a relationship that I will regret? I really haven't found my guy yet, I'm not picky, I don't expect a perfect handsome guy. I just want someone that will like me for who I am, loud, noisy or even manly and also who just makes me smile at things. I found one, tried but didn't end the way. It's ok. I'll just need to find someone else, but at least I didn't regret trying and he did make me smile a lot.
On another note of crossing that joking line or just plain rudeness, my little brother loves putting down the band i like. 2PM. well, not so much anymore but still. He LOVES SNSD or Girls' Generation and I never talk bad about them. I do like them but I don't see the need to put down every time I mention 2PM or jay. He loves it, and I lost my temper on him today.
It's just the lethal combination of both that really pisses me off. I really wonder what they think sometimes. Really, I may be easy going in some ways or most of the time but still, respect me and my likes. Or just accept it. Do you need to dictate what or how my life should be like and what I should like or not?
