Fasting month... Selamat Hari Raya soon lolz...

Time flies... I think it has the speed of light. It's really fast and now I'm facing exams and soon
I'll be back home... Home sweet home. Living away from home is nice but I really do wanna go home. It seems a day when I said my goodbyes and came over here. It's nice, the weather, the people and even the food but it just can't take over the smell of dust in the air, the glazing sun, the humid touch on my skin and the dirty kopitiams back home. It just didn't ooze the same feeling of sweetness and friendliness of home...

Exams coming up and I do not have the heart of preparing for it. I just wanna escape and that's really bad. I do so wanna do well and please pray that I really can concentrate on all my studies. It was hell for me during the senior exams week. I didn't do well and I can say that I didn't do my best. I am really hoping that I could do my best in all my exams.

Home is home. How can you define a home? Something where you feel you belong to or somewhere that you love? I miss my mum and dad. I do say living apart from them really brought us close together. Living here opened my eyes that there are lots of different sides to
things. I quarrelled less with my mum and talked more to her... saying stuff like "Erm... You
know when my piano only got pass, not merit? In fact it has nothing to do with the teacher but I was lazy to practise it..." If I had said it in front of her in Kuching, now... I think she would get really mad and perhaps... ground me?? Hahaha...

Fasting month is here. Bad luck for the Muslims here... It's daylight saving, meaning that the hours of the day are longer and the nights are shorter. It is daylight aroud 5am and the day really grows dark around 8.00pm. I really wonder how do they fast here?? It's bad enough having to fast from 5am to 5pm and it really sucks to fast another 3 more hours... Hahah.. I was told that they cheat by fasting according to their country's time and I do not blame them... SO I just wanna wish Siti Hajar and Siti Rohani a very good fasting month... I wonder where they are.... I miss them!!

The smothered junior... Nice uniform aye? The scarf is also part of it... 

Talking to my friends... Hmmm... Very artistic wo... Like the world is gonna tilt... 

Yesterday...

Oh yea... In response to my post yesterday... Can I kill you Edmund?? Wekekek... NAh... Guys have the thickest skin ever so I do not bother to apologise anyway. It was just at the spur of the moment stuff... I'm trying to put up photos of the food I like here... Heheh... Just wait...

Freakin' Holiday...

Just finished my exams, had a trip up north and NOW I'm tired like heck... Life sucks and I wanna go back home. Here might be fun but life is still better when I'm home. I miss my parents soooo much.

Yea, talking about friends. I've so many but how many are really close to me? I've just reviewed myself and I found out that I've still got lots to change... I really need to apologise as I may seem over at times...

Ke Li, I was rude and horrible but really gal... That's me... Sorrt for doing stuff u hate to u... Glad that we are good friends now.

Candy, you were one of my oldest friend. I used to think that u r a bimbo but it turns out otherwise. Glad that u stuck up for me when I was at my lowest.

Lee Kian (Juan) I suck at our friendship. We didn't talked to each other for half a year and our relationship was strained for a year due to my stupidity. Just over something that's not worth it. I admit, I was jealous of you...

Siew Hui, (Siew Siew) U are such a sweet gal. I bitched behind your back and yet we remain good friends. If possible, I'll see ya this CNY... Sorry if I ever hurt your feelings.

Eleanor, (Lenor) u were the most perfect gal... Looks, deposition, loving, fun, sociable... U name it, you've got it. I was jealous about you. Yet u treated me the best... I felt guilty... Sorry gal... U were just the sweetest and I could not hate u any longer... Wekeke...

I've lots to apologise to and I could only remember these few cz I really love them... Wahahah... Sorry la... No guys cz I know u guys ta ren ta liang...

Went to study at Auckland Uni library. NO use 1... Cz my eyes always looking at guys and gals la... Who ask them sibeh eng tao and leng... C til distracted.

Hahaha... Idiot la...

Exams... DUMB EXAMS!!!!!!

Freaking finished my exams now... Found out I really sux at all. It was HORRENDEOUS!!!!!!! This is really a nightmare... What sanity does the exam board has? NONE!!! Try writing 8 freaking essays (2 pages long...) in 3 hours, not mentioning you still have gotta do at least 3 maps and erm... 20 questions of subjective questions that need drawing and eye-squinting?? THIS IS TOTALLY OUT OF HAND!!!! Oh yea... That's the easy exam. DUMB! 3 papers in 3 hours... MAnaged to kick one of it... Meaning I failed cz I've no idea wad I wrote and freaking no time to do anything...

English was the worst out of all. I came out pale-faced. I had 2 papers on that day. Physics and English combination of exams are so my luck. *%#$!!! WAAAAA... I wanna cry... 3 at least 500 words long of essays... Ever thought about Bahluddin (The BM tuition teacher that is famous in Kuching... )? Weellll..... The essays are sort of that long but u can never ever crapped bout any stuff!!!! And they expect us to analyse and try different styles of writing... ALL ARE CRAP!!!!!!! Plus I had to do a big analysis on unfamiliar text... Meaning I've gotta learn all those metaphors and explain them in a page long essay... Tough luck!!

Songs are what cheer me up now... Oh yea... I love Good Charlotte and W-inds. Soothing... Screaming my head off... Ta!

WAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!

OH NO!!!!!!! DUMB DUMB DUMB DUMB DAY!!!!!!!!!! I hate days like this... Everything goes wrong. I debated on bringing my friends book to school and I decided against it. HOWEVER she needed it... So better bring tomorrow. Then Physics Internal! GOING NUTS! I didn't managed to finish it... Boo hoo hoo... Conclusion not done, evaluation not finished... Didn't manage to get the gradient of the line counted... WAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!

Ok... I had a great week last week. Went to town with my friends... COOL!! My Life Story at my school playing songs to which the gals are screaming at... BLEARGH!!!!!!! Then Auckland Uni Open day... FOund out that I could have my interview b4 going back and I do not need to come back to Auckland so early... CNY HERE I COME!!! WEKEKEKE!!!

Next week would be the Seniors Exam Week... OH NO!! Not yet started revising yet... DO NOT KILL ME!! I've like... Geo to study, English to hafal all the quotes, History to remember wad happened next, Phyics to remind myself that electricity is easy for me (so i do not give up halfway) and also Stats to remind me of all the hell i went through when I was in Form 5...

HECK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Die la... SO depressed...

Life's sucks...

Ok... I am being really naughty. I told a guy to be my boyfriend. It's just a plain damn typical brainless Esther sytle of joke. I wanted to be able to show my boyfriend's picture around like my Kiwi friends do. It's kinda sweet. So I thought, why not ask someone that can grace my wallet too?

The guy would know who he is himself. I'm not going to embarass him in my blog. Nah, he's just a sweet and nice guy who just happened to be in my way. So I asked him just on impulse. Well, it's just a no-strings attached relationship. I just need picture anyway and I do admit, he looks good. Hahah... There are some really good stuffs lolz... I do not care how many girlfriends he has in Kuching, how many girls he likes, so long I can have his picture in my wallet. So, anyone who wants to apply? Just leave a message.
*I sound like a brainless bimbo... Nah... Not that desperate.

Now I'm trying to finish up my assignment for Geography. I really admit my essay writing skills are great, fantastic and admirable... Ok... it's my cut-and-paste-then-rewrite-some-of-it-lah skill.... Ok... GEROFF this blog and start write your last two essays. Mind you that I still have a PHysics le-pot to write and also one diagram to draw...

LaZy bUm...

I've been procastinating my geo assignment which is due on the 22nd... I've 6 weeks to work on it but I've not started yet... DAMN!!!

Classes are really tiring cz:

1. I'm sleeping in my History class
2. The teacher's not teaching anything cz he's too busy admonishing my classmates to shut up.
3. It's all about things I've miss during my rehearsal time.
4. I've gotta speak for 6 minutes in front of the damn class, in ENGLISH and about texts (Shakespeare - Othello, Katherine Mansfield and James K. Baxter) which I hate so much!!
5. O yea... reading too much and too late in bed.

I've been helping out my friends in their Economic assignments, o yea... What the heck is an economic assignment in my hands? I do not even do economic for goodness sake... Hahah... I'm paraphrasing and doing some translating for them.

Essays to write and lots of reading logs due... Better do them tomorrow!! HaiZz...

A rose for each of the orchestra member in appreciation. I picked the orange rose...